A while back I came across an amazing website that is trying to break down the stigma attached to miscarriage, neonatal and infant loss. The loss of a pregnancy or the loss of a baby seem to be topics that people are afraid to discuss. The women behind this site are helping to put a face to loss and giving moms, many of whom have never talked about their losses to anyone, the chance to share their story.
I have to admit, I was a little bit caught of guard when I saw my face on their site tonight. Actually I cracked, cried for a good ten minutes, then got myself together so I could blog about the whole thing.
I probably should not be blogging. Like when they take someone's keys away when they have had too much to drink. Someone should take my keyboard but no one has so I'm just going to type away and blow off some steam.
I don't want to be the face of loss. I want to be the face of a crazy mom who is even busier than I already am because I am trying to manage triplets, a teenager and a one year old. I want 3 girls and 2 boys WHO ARE ALL ALIVE.
I don't have any touching, eloquent things to say tonight. I'm feeling sad and crappy and am going to end this post so I can wallow in the fact that I am the face of loss and I don't want to be.
You can read our story here.